Day 3 - Crash and Burn

You guessed it - I failed miserably today. 
It all started at lunch time.  I went to my gynecologist today, my yearly check-up.  I had spoke with Numero Uno before about wanting to ask the doctor about why I have not gotten pregnant over the last three years since we don't do birth control.  I felt like me even asking that was pretty self-explanatory: I want to have another child.  He said yes ask about what's going on.  So today I asked the doctor and he wants to do lab work.  I relayed the message to Numero Uno and his response was not what I wanted.  He turned into a man.  He said he was happy with the age our kids are now and really didn't want to have anymore children.  My heart was crushed.  I found my comfort in the bottom of a Jack's fast food bag along with a tall Dr. Pepper.  That was just the start.  Two fun size Butterfingers, a Grapico, and three cookies later, my diet is not detoxed.
Numero Uno and I will resolve this issue, life will go on, we will be fine.  The unpleasant reality is we differ on something I hold dear to my heart.  He has since told me he would agree to one more.  My heart did not soar since I felt like we were reaching a business agreement instead of loving decisions to expand our family. 
Life will go on.  Tomorrow is Day 4.  I will start again.

Day 1 and 2

I can easily describe my first two days of weight loss:  ill, ill, and more ill.  I get so mad when I'm losing weight.  I realize I am doing my body good and that I will reap the benefits but all my mind hears is "yada, yada, yada." 
For today I had a small cup of coffee with cream but did not put my teaspoon of sugar in it.  I did have a small piece of cake at my son's b-day party today.  However, I was proud of myself for not saving a portion of the cake batter and eat it while the remaining batter baked.  Yay me!  Small victory.  I also chose to drink water instead of Grapico or tea like everyone else.  Yes, I am trying to make myself feel better for not being able to eat whatever I wanted. 

Committed

I'm about to make a statement that I DO NOT want to make - I am committing to losing weight for the next 28 days.  There I said it.  It's out in the open, if I turn back now I will look like a fool.  I actually found myself praying, "Lord, should I do this?"  As if there was anything to pray about.  My father has told me on numerous occasions that there are some things we do not have to pray over - such as "Lord, should I give 10% to the church?" or "Lord, should I stay in this marriage?"  Uh, yes to all of the above and yes, to mine!  I am 4' 10" and weigh 148.  Yes, you heard me correctly - 148 pounds.  TOO MUCH!  And yet I hesitate to lose weight.  Why?  Because it would mean I would have to exert self control.  Ah, there's the rub. 
So, what is my game plan?  Step 1: Detox my current diet.  I am at the point that I literally do not feel hungry anymore because I eat so often.  To those of you who are not like this you may find this hard to believe.  But for those of you who crave sweets, junk, Dr. Pepper, you know what I mean.  Step 2:  I will gauge my fitness level.  I realized today that it has been three months since I have been to the gym.  Three whole months!  How do I do this?  Why do I pay a monthly fee if I'm not going to take advantage of this wonderful facility?  Step 3:  Post in my journal daily.  This is where you come in.  I will post the good, the bad, and the ugly.  I want to see some measure of success in my life in regards to my weight.
For today - I am feeling apprehensive about this.  I am 31 years old and feel like I have NEVER had control of my weight.  So, how do I succeed now?  What will make the difference this time?  All I want to do right now is take a big swig of the Dr. Pepper I had at lunch as I pull up my granny panties from where my belly has forced them to roll down.  (Lovely mental image, right?)

Everything I Could Ever Hope or Dream For...

We're back and our trip was FANTASTIC!  Numero Uno and I couldn't get over how stress free this vacation was.  Especially considering I have never planned more for a trip or paid more for any other trip.  We had a ball.  It felt almost surreal being there and seeing the smiles, yes, smiles on everyone's faces.
One of the things that made my heart very happy was when all of my family (extended) told me "thank you for all the planning".  I was happy that everyone enjoyed my labor.  Another part that me and my man were shocked about is the fact that not once did our kids have a come apart.  I attribute that largely to scheduled daily down time - it saved us and gave us enough energy to go back out at night. 

We did so much: two days in Magic Kingdom, one day in Animal Kingdom which included a Grand Gathering Safari experience, one day in Hollywood Studios, plus a Not-So-Scary Halloween Party.
I scheduled Tres for the Bibbidi Bobbidi Boutique as well as took her to meet the princesses.  She loved it!  And I am so thankful for the experiences. 

Some of my friends said they would never take a vacation with extended family; however, in our case the grandparents and cousins were a big help.  Grandparents were great to help watch all the kids and served as our own rider swap while cousins were great playmates! 
I would love to go back again.  Disney does a great job on the details.  From riding wooden ponies around the Whispering Canyon restaurant to audience involvement at the Lion King to eagerness to meet our needs, they know their business.